I'm a stay home mom with a lot on her plate! I have 4 little princesses and own two businesses.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Seriously...
Soo.... Today I had a very angry morning. I find breastfeeding to be a wonderful way to show your baby how much you care. It's definately a sacrifice for the mom to breast feed. I know that there are people out there that can't for so many different reasons. I understand it perfectly. I had issues with bfing my oldest daughter around 4 months and had to stop. I cried when I gave her, her first bottle of formula. I felt like I was a failure. I put the pressure on myself. I wanted to succeed and because I was young and didn't have the resources available to me then, that I have today, I felt I had to stop. With my second daughter I did everything the lactation consultant suggested I do to get my supply up and boy did I have a supply! I could have fed two children with the amount of milk I made! It was a blessing and a huge relief considering I worked 8-10 hours a day 4-5 days a week. She could eat and I could pump for her to have later. I actually continued to lactate for almost a year after she stopped bfing. This is the reason for this post... I saw on my facebook that people were offended by a breast feeding doll. My opinion on it is I won't spend that much money on a special doll, my girls will just play with the dolls they have. If they choose to pretend to bf them like mommy does their twin sisters so be it. No, I don't think my children will have sex because of bfing nor do I think it's perverted for them to witness, or for them to imitate. I find bfing natural and beautiful. Dirty minds have made what's naturally best for our babies a frowned upon thing. I don't go around telling moms that bottle feed their babies that they are feeding their children fake artificial food, with possibility of dead bugs ground up in them and they are gross for subjecting my child to witnessing them abusing their child from the inside out. Seriously could you imagine me doing that? No way!! I would never because I know how much it hurt me that I couldn't continue to bf my oldest daughter to a year old because of personal issues I would never hurt another person that way, especially because you don't know why they are doing what they are doing. I honestly could never afford to formula feed twins. We'd go broke! I can't work and make enough to pay a sitter and buy formula with twins it's just not going to happen. In saying that, my decision is just that my decision. I've heard every line in the book about breastfeeding twins and It will be so hard and all this other crap. I know what I want out of my parenting experience, I have expectations of myself. I will do what I think is best for my babies and I know that bfing is the right way to go.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
The Dr says....
Mia and Grace at Aunt Pat's on Labor day
Looking off into the sky... Airplanes?
Gracie is probably being nosy and trying to see what's under her.
Mia watching her cousins play around,
So, today I had another complication from my medication. This time my legs got swollen and turned all red, got hot, felt like fire going up and down them and were all blotchy and my face got all red. I had a few blotches on my arms and I didn't really check anywhere else. I called my fabulous Dr and asked him what I should do. He asked me about my meds how long ago I took it and all that good stuff. He said If I feel it necessary to go to the hospital to have it checked out. I didn't think it was necessary I just wanted to know if he thought it was serious. I waited another 45 min because Greg was food shopping and he had the girls with him. When Greg got home he checked my legs again and said the looked better and they weren't as hot as they had been. I think it's a weird side affect from my meds. The best news from all of this craziness is that my Dr told me to stop taking my meds!!! The bad part is I don't want to have my babies so soon. I think I'm going to call and see if I can get into see my Dr a little sooner and have a talk with him about what our next course of action will be to keep me from going into labor. I want to make it to at least 32 weeks. I'm nervous about having them too soon but I don't want to have all of these terrible side affects taking over my life and possibly causing a blood clot or something worse. Being pregnant with twins already raises my chances of blood clots and pre-eclampsia and I feel that this medication will make those things happen if I were to continue to take them. I have had the worst pregnancy so far and I am thankful that this will be my last pregnancy. I don't think I could do this again. I have so much pressure on my lower stomach and upper thighs it's unimaginable and I didn't get this until 5-6 weeks before I gave birth to Grace. If this follows the same timeline pain and weird feelings wise I may or may not make it 32 weeks. I want to have my babies be safe and healthy and be ready for the world. Friends and family that read my blog please be praying for my babies and me that we can have a safe and a healthier end to this pregnancy than what we have been through so far. I want my babies safe and healthy. That is my ultimate goal. I love them so much already and I know that within a few days I will start contracting like crazy again. I thank God everyday for them and my whole family. I love our home and being a mommy to all of my girls and a wife to my wonderful, handsome husband. Just keep us in prayer that everything works out. Til I post again! Goodnight! <3
Friday, March 25, 2011
The twins are 25 weeks 3 days and counting....
A sister is a gift from God, to make life worthwhile here below... My Gracie and my Mia snuggling on the couch cause they lovies each other so much... They are such good girls. Love my little angels... Can't wait til I have all of my little girls together! I can't wait for all of them to meet. I'm so blessed to have these little girls because the love sisters have for each other is so wonderful! 
Love my baby belly. I'm very proud of being pregnant and even though I have difficult pregnancies, I love every moment of it. I'm so excited for these baby girls...


I can not wait to meet the little angels that are kicking around in my belly!


Now that I'm settling into my medication, I'm starting to have a little more energy. I just move so slow. There are so many things I want to and need to do that it's overwhelming but for some reason I don't feel choked by it. I know I'll get it done in time and if not then oh well. I know i'm going to have to adjust my life for the twins so it's not really a shock. The only thing that scares me is that my Mia and Grace will feel like the twins are more important when they are all my babies and I love them equally. So much goes on in my head about what it will be like and what I'll have to do and adjust.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Medication! Ugh, why can't this be normal
My daughter Mia is in Ballet classes and I took a few pictures of her classes. When she started in December, here are two.



I just thought I would add some cuteness to the page with her dance class and classmates.
On a yuck note, I've been so tired!
The weekend before last I was having contractions like crazy and I was in a lot of pain. I drank a ton and rested on my left side. They continued getting worse over the weekend. Monday morning I called my Ob to see what he suggested I do. I was told to go over to the hospital to get checked out. I was there for about 5-6 hours while they monitored the babies, gave me an ultrasound and monitored my contractions. They gave me Terbutaline which is very unpleasant. They sent me home on Procardia which is almost as awful! I was started out on 4 doses a day and that was just the worst. For about 3 days I took it as prescribed. It was making me feel so dizzy, nauseous, shaky,breathless and made my blood pressure rise so much that I couldn't fuction. I called the Dr's office Thursday afternoon and told them how much it was affecting me and they took me down 1 dose a day. Since then I have been feeling so much better. I take 2-3 a day and I don't have more than 3-5 contractions a day which is fine by my dr and I don't have the extreme side affects I was having from taking so many doses. Thank God!!!
I'm feeling the way I did before I got severe bronchitis and started having to many contractions. Just super super tired and very pregnant. Well, I'm definately more pregnant than before. It's still hard for me to concentrate beyond a few paragraphs but I have so much to do before the babies are here and I don't want to forget anything. I'm catching up on things 5-10 minutes at a time which is better than not attempting to use that time to be productive at all. Tonight I have 3 things I would like to finish. Tomorrow I'll attempt to do 3 more. *Contraction* Ugh!
Ok well, I'm going to go spend some time with Mia and Grace while I'm still feeling ok. Feel free to comment or follow me... I look forward to some feedback. :)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Cute!!!
I just thought this was cute to add to the blog! It's an awesome countdown!!!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
It's Huge!!!
22 weeks 3 days!!! It's huge! It grew so large so fast! I can't believe how fast it grew. It seems like over night it doubled in size!
My pretty babies! I love how Gracie has already nicknamed them and she calls them by their names. They both do. It's really adorable.

I really do have the most awesome husband ever! I can't believe how awesome he is. Every day with him gets better and better. I love how he takes care of us and how much the girls love him. I'm so lucky!


I really do have the most awesome husband ever! I can't believe how awesome he is. Every day with him gets better and better. I love how he takes care of us and how much the girls love him. I'm so lucky!
I have been thinking about my new babies a lot lately and wondering who they will look like, what color eyes they will have, and what they will be like when they are born. I really am just excited to be a mom to infants again. When we decided to try for a boy we really didn't think about twins. It just didnt cross our minds until I was so tired and things were so different from my other pregnancies. We were hoping this pregnancy would go something like the other ones because we kinda knew what to expect this being number 3. Well, so much for that happening. Talk about surprise! I'm so glad that we have had as much time as we have to get used to and plan for twins. It's exciting. I just hope we get lots of diapers at my baby shower!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Another day...
I can not wait for summer! I wish we could take a family vacation again this summer! Next year! It will be more fun with the twins being a little older too. 
Ugh!! My husband is watching Predators and I'm sitting here trying not to look up to often because I don't do scary well. I am not liking what I am hearing and seeing as I occasionally look up.
Today was a lovely day. We got a lot done together as a family. We've had a few kids over this week playing and visiting, so we had quite the mess in the play room to straighten up. We did it as a family and it got done pretty fast. I love doing things together. We get so much more done that way. My Mia is a wonderful cleaner. She helps so much and I'm so blessed to have her! Grace on the other hand is just starting to learn how to clean up her toys properly. She does other things really well, she likes to clean up in the kitchen more than clean up her toys.
Tomorrow we have a few more things to get done and a lot of running around to do. I hope I can get a good nights sleep tonight so I can function tomorrow. I usually need about 12-14 hours a day like an infant. It's awful! I'm used to being able to function great on 6 or 7. This being pregnant with twins is really different for me from what I'm used to activity level wise. It's so weird to feel ready to pass out at the drop of a hat. I can't wait til they are born and we get on a schedule so that I can start feeling more normal again and get back to my normal levels of craziness in my life. I love being busy and doing things with my kids and husband. I've been testing out having 4 kids and it's not that bad. Everyone has someone to play with and it kinda is easier. It's just bigger messes.
I am going to try to go to sleep since I have to pick up my moms van and get the bunk beds from my parents house and then come back here and pick up some stuff that is going to my moms house til we move because we need to get rid of some stuff so that the new babies will have a bedroom. I feel bad my older girls will lose their playroom to the twins but I'm glad we just have another bedroom to put the babies in.
Everything in my life has fallen into place. Some people may look at our lives and judge because they wouldn't do things the way we are doing them but I have not regrets about any of it. I have a saying I heard once, Confidence is the feeling you have before you understand the situation. Making assumptions about someone else's life will only get you in trouble. You don't know what people deal with each day or why they do what they do. Don't assume. God is the only one fit to judge.
Olivia and Zoe
This is an ultrasound from 14 weeks. They like being close to each other already.

This is an ultrasound of the twins heads facing each other at 19 weeks. It's a top view. You can see their little fists up like little boxers.

This is me 19 weeks 3 days pregnant... Twins

This is me 19 weeks 3 days pregnant... Twins

Everything is so crazy! We are having two more little girls! I was hoping for a little boy for my wonderful, supportive, handsome, and amazing husband but it wasn't to be. We are having two more girls! They are healthy and growing well.
We found out I have placenta previa which kinda sucks. It could be worse. The worst thing that will come of it is I might bleed a little and have to go to the hospital and have an emergency c-section. Which is actually my worst nightmare after having 2 completely natural births with my older daughters. I'm not a fan of medication for myself and def not for babies unless absolutely necessary. So, please pray for my placenta to move up and out of the way of my babies coming out the natural way. I'm not keen on having my belly cut in half, whether I have an amazing Dr or not.
Oh... The girls names are Olivia Rose and Zoe Leigh. I can not wait to meet them! I'm 22 weeks now and I have about 14-16 weeks til they are here and I just want to hold them! They are kicking everyday, a lot! It's like having little kangaroos in your belly. If ones not moving around the other is. I can't really tell which is which but they move a lot! So, I know it's not just one doing all the crazy movements. It's so cool to know that two little girls are growing in my belly! It's the coolest ever. It's such a cool proud feeling, knowing that I have two. I hope it's not wrong feeling like I'm super lucky because God chose me to have these sweet little people entrusted two at a time to me!!! It's wonderful! I hope that I can stand up to the standard he has set me up against with giving me two babies at once. I have to admit it was a struggle with my other two, but I mainly did it on my own. This time being properly married to such a fantastic man will make my journey all the sweeter and easier. God does know what he's doing and I accept the challenge he has set before us.
It has been such a wonderful journey so far. I have been sick the past two weeks but I'm starting to feel better. I went to the hospital last Sunday. I was soo sick it was just awful. They gave me a test for strep and the flu but thank God both came back negative. I just had a bad case of bronchitis. They wanted to do a chest xray to see if I had pneumonia but I said no to that. If it got worse then I would have gone back but I just slept for like 5 days after that. Each day I take an hour or two nap. I'm just so run down that I need to sleep. I'm figuring that my body is telling me what I need and I listen when I get tired and need to rest. The basics get done around the house and Greg is an amazing help with the rest. He's even an excellent cook! For my birthday he made me a chocolate cake with vanilla icing and it was fantastic!!! One of the best cakes I've ever had! I truly am a lucky woman! I have 2 wonderful little girls and an awesome husband who can handle anything that's been put in his path and is also a sweet man. I can't wait to have my new little ladies in the mix. Greg is just wonderful.
Well, regardless of what the time says on this post, it's 1:36 am and I need to get to sleep because my Mia has a big day at school tomorrow. I'm so proud of her for memorizing the readers oath they sent home. It was pretty long! She did such a great job that Greg rewarded her hard work by taking us all to Friendly's for ice cream. We had such a great family night. I'm going to miss Greg when he starts working full time again.
More soon!
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